fast

This time last year, after taking pregnancy test #4 and getting yet another very clear second line, I decided it was probably for real. I just sat on my in-laws' leather sofa and thought about how I wouldn't be able to think about anything else for the next nine months and how slow it would go by. At first it did go by so slow, because I felt awful and we didn't tell anyone for way too long and I was so excited and scared about everything. Just thinking about Pixel Junk Monsters, this game Jacob would play when I was at my peak of morning sickness, still makes me nauseous. (I try to remember that whenever I start thinking I want another baby any time soon.) 
But then school started, and the next 6 months flew by. Now here I am with an almost 4-month-old and I can't even believe how much has changed in a year and how quickly it went after all.

Dabbling

I used to wish that I was really super amazing at just one thing, but I've learned to embrace the face that I'm just ok at a lot of things. I think this transition happened around Sophomore year of high school when I decided to quit going to ballet for 3 hours every day and just be a kid and have a social life. Then I reached my peak of hobby exploration. That year alone I was in dance, orchestra, and ice skating classes, culinary club, the ski/snowboard club, badminton team, and a few weeks on the tennis team (I think I quit after I got my fingers stuck in the strings of the racket when I was supposed to be listening to a lecture from the coach...or because if I did manage to hit the ball, it hurt my little wrists real bad). I even got the boy I liked to teach me and a friend guitar lessons.

Snowriders

Badminton

obviously

orchestra trip

So my latest hobbies are learning to use Adobe Illustrator to make the blog all cute (could you tell?) and penmanship. I just decided that being able to write really pretty would be a good skill to have, so I got this book last time I was at the library:

I guess if I can't be in school (I miss it so bad), I'll just teach myself anything and everything. Except sporty things. No hope there.

Thursday

Clark had to wear mittens all day since he likes to eat his hands, but sometimes he misses and scratches his own face. Don't worry, I did change him out of his pajamas eventually.

And I received my diploma in the mail! Since we didn't walk, I keep forgetting that I'm done with college. Now I have some proof.

Obviously things are pretty exciting around here.

we are...

officially college graduates! We are such party poopers, but we were really glad to be sitting on the couch watching commencement rather than being there in real life. I'm sure Clark appreciated that too.

It's still hard to believe that I won't be going back to BYU in August. Or EVER (maybe). I have really loved going there and having Jacob with me every step of the way. Time to start real life I guess.

3/30/12

Baby Clark has arrived!

He is practically perfect in every way, if I do say so myself.

One of these days I'll have to share all the juicy details of his arrival, but for now I'm just trying to rest and adjust and let my body get over the trauma before I attempt to go to the last few weeks of classes and graduate. Yikes.

A Day in the Life

> To school by 8 AM.

> Work, study, class until at least 6 PM. Have I mentioned that I got Jacob a job at the HLRC? The best job ever just got even better. Now I have someone text, "Luna Lovegood" when a wide-eyed, long-haired blond comes into the lab. Class and study, less fun.

> At some point (or several) during the day I usually do something really stupid or forget something important, and Jacob reassures me that I'm "just a little spazzy" because I'm pregnant.

> Get home and eat something not very good, because I don't have time to make a real dinner before my baby-growing body gets really mad at me. Catch up on my shows or do more homework (pinterest) or read until Jacob comes home around 9 or so.

> We usually finish the day off with a cereal party (not really a party--just two or more people eating cold cereal at an inappropriate time) and an episode of Dateline or any other show centered on true crime.

> In bed by 10:30, sometimes earlier.

And that's how I became a 75-year-old before my 22nd birthday. I'm not even sorry about it either.

Luckily my block class ends this week which means I'll be able to go home at 2:00 instead of 6:00 which means I can cook real food again! And take naps!

Valentiny Things

Lately it feels like we never have a free second, but on Saturday afternoon Jacob took a little break from work/school/studying to take me out for buy-one-get-one-free Smashburger and a Dairy Queen ice cream cone! Yes, we're poor college kids even on holidays, but even just going out to eat is a treat these days.
Later that evening we went to Jake and Brittany's "Palentines" (like pals...get it?) party. I made these little ice cream cupcakes for it. They turned out a little sad, but it was a cute idea, right?! There was a lot of good company and yummy treats at the party, and we even got to decorate sugar cookies!

<==== 33-Week Belllllly

On for real Valentine's Day, I surprised Jacob with a big bag of his favorite "treat"--chips! I put lots of cheesy little love notes to correspond with each type of chips.

Always the one-upper, Jacob got me these cute maternity sewing patterns. I'm so excited to make them, even if I don't finish in time for this pregnancy. He also tried to make me a card on InDesign. It turned out giant, because he couldn't figure out how to print it. Love it!

Once we got done with school that evening, we went to the temple with our friends Hailey and Jordan. Then we went to eat at Diego's. It was a great way to top off our Valentine's Day.

Semester #8, Week 28

I'm taking a pretty light load of classes this semester, because I really only needed one more class to graduate. I decided to still go full-time though, because everyone will start taking money away from us if I'm part-time.
So along with my advanced writing and an editing class, I'm taking Floral Design and ASL 101 (I've already taking all of the classes above this one). And ASL is a block class, so by the time baby comes I'll only be in three classes. I'm still a little worried about how crazy things are going to get in a few months, but I'm loving all my classes so far!

 Jacob says I need to keep posting bump pictures, so here is a 28 week update.

blehh. I hate getting dressed every morning.

I might be too stressed

It took a while to finish once I got busy with school, but by the time I got to the end this morning, I was bawling (I never sat through the whole movie, so I had no idea how it was going to end). And Jacob was laughing.
Go read it.

We Need a Little Christmas

So I have a million big projects and papers due in the next two weeks trying to take away my holiday spirit. Uh-uh papers, not happening! (imagine that with a sassy head bob+finger snap)

We'll be simmering potpourri, blasting the Christmas Pandora station, and watching awful made-for-tv holiday movies allll month long! Plus, we've been gift planning for the past 4 or 5 FHEs and got all three of our Christmas decorations up.

I believe we have Bethany to thank for this glitter-covered dino ending up with the rest of our decorations. He really saved the day, because we didn't have a tree topper!


Happy Holidays kiddos!

oh wait..

Maybe I am still a four-year-old.


I get hungry at school.
And if I could get away with it, I'd probably bring a little tupperware of cheerios and goldfish to sacrament meeting.

little visits

Sometimes when I get home from school, I have a little visitor waiting for me (usually not bearing a large egg).


If school has made me grumpy or overwhelmed I think "uhhh, I'm too tired for this". But I always end up being thoroughly entertained and enjoying her company. Some of my favorite moments:

She told me about one of her mom's friends being pregnant, and I said "Oh she has a baby in her tummy?!" and she responded, "NO! It's in her uterus!"

We decided to watch The Wizard of Oz one afternoon and she asked, "Does this movie have a robot in it?" I told her no and then figured out that she was referring to the tinman.


She came over while we were in the middle of a movie and wanted to play on our tablet thing so Jacob told her to go play it in the closet, which she did. For a long time. In his defense, it's the only separate room in our apartment besides the bathroom.

I love kids at this age. Why can't we all be four-years-old forever?

here we go again

We have started our last year here at BYU, and now that I can see the light at the end of the tunnel, I'm kinda almost sad to be so close to being done. I know I always complain about how hard school is and Provo and the cold and all, but for the most part, I love going to school here. I've learned to laugh at the little quirks and all the marriage-obsessed, bad-driving, I-call-my-mom-3-times-a-day-to-tell-her-about-my-love-life people here and just be grateful for the really great education I'm getting. (Plus, there are a lot of really cool people here, too).

Anyhow, one thing that makes me laugh each year is the first time a teacher has us sing a hymn to start the class. I don't know why, but it is sooo funny to me that a bunch of college kids asked to sing a song on the spot end up sounding like this:



ok, not quite Mo Tab, but pretty close. I remember freshman year at FHE we started with a hymn, and I started laughing so hard I was crying. Then Kami and Devaun caught my giggles and it was bad news. I've never seen such death stares. "Gosh, don't you know we're trying to invite the spirit!"

Only at BYU!

I've got an idea

So I've been stressing about trying to get a class to substitute for one of the classes required for my minor so I can graduate by December (the class I need is only offered Winter semester). I didn't know if it was going to work out or if I'd have to do an extra pointless semester and then it hit me- I don't need a minor! I mean really, is my minor going to help me get a job? Probably not. So instead, I'm (maybe) going to get a masters in TESOL .. or whatever else I feel like.
When I get an idea like this, I make rash decisions without much thought which is why I've dropped all classes for my minor and signed up to take the GRE. whoop
I NEVER thought I would want to do more school after I got my bachelors but I'm loving school, and this feels right. for now.

Wish me luck!

Who am I?

(not 24601... or Spiderman)

Finals are officially OVER!

I should be relieved, right? Nope, early this morning I woke up worrying about how I maybe might have gotten an A- in one of my classes. Then I started getting stressed out and thinking about how I was going to e-mail that teacher and give him a piece of my mind for not keeping our grades posted online throughout the semester and not handing all my assignments back to me...
an A-! REALLY?!
Since when did I, one of the most irresponsible people I know, become one of those annoyingly studious, I-have-to-have-perfect-grades kids?? It creeps me out.
Seriously, my mom had to drop my homework/books/papers off at school at least twice a week up to my senior year of high school.

And suddenly I am Hermione Granger. without magic. or a cool accent. Lame.


oh, and I got an A. No need for crazy emails.

Final Answer.

So, we finally know what we're doing in the summer!
(unless we change our minds)

Arizona, here we come!



Jacob got an internship, and I'm going to try to do my TESOL internship online or get a job or take online classes or just hang out. Anyone have a job for me?? Or a car??



Well, I don't really care what I'll be doing. I'm just happy to know where we'll be, and I LOVE being in Arizona.

sooo

My whole life is so up in the air right now.
People keep asking the same questions over and over.
Where will we be living in the summer?
When will I be done with school?
When will Jacob be done with school?
What am I going to do after I graduate?
and my favorite, When am I going to have babies?

I. Don't. Know.
And I have a feeling I won't know for a while, so I'm learning to just go with the flow and be happy with whatever happens. So that's our life for now.
"10 Year Plan" my eye.

I ramble

Jacob's younger sister texted me yesterday, asking if it was wrong that she hoped a family emergency would come up so she could get out of going on a date she'd been dreading.
And I remembered how glad I am do be done with all that dating business.
SO glad.

I'm also almost done with school. I can't decide if that's a good thing or a bad thing. And I can't decide if I should cram everything I have left into one 17-credit-hour semester or if I should just take my time. It would help if I knew where we'll be in the summer. If we stayed here in Provo, I could take classes and that would solve nearly all my problems.
I got an email about a job opportunity to teach English in Italian summer camps. It sounds soo appealing: get paid to teach kids in ITALY. But instead I'm being a supportive wife and going wherever an internship or job for Jacob is. And it's killing me to not know where we'll be, because I'm the person who always likes to know the plan.
Keep reminding myself: glad to be done dating! and all really good things come with sacrafice.
marriage= no more being selfish

crazy people

For probably the past month, there has been a line of tents camped outside the Marriott center waiting for the next basketball game. Last week they wrapped around the ENTIRE building. Makes me want to go camping.
Is it Spring yet?

oh and I support Austin's idea for Brandon Davies: "I want to make shirts that say 'I'd do him too' with a big picture of his face"
BYU would love that.

Monday, monday

I'm starting to find it hard to believe that I once lived somewhere that never snowed and that I used to think 50 degrees was COLD. I think I've lived here too long. How sad.


Speaking of sad, I finished all three seasons of VM. Now what am I gonna do? Study? Please.

I need some TV series recommendations. Thanks!



P.S. We watched this last night, and I can't stop thinking about it! Guess I don't need to see the movie now.