sooo

My whole life is so up in the air right now.
People keep asking the same questions over and over.
Where will we be living in the summer?
When will I be done with school?
When will Jacob be done with school?
What am I going to do after I graduate?
and my favorite, When am I going to have babies?

I. Don't. Know.
And I have a feeling I won't know for a while, so I'm learning to just go with the flow and be happy with whatever happens. So that's our life for now.
"10 Year Plan" my eye.

got a number of irrational fears

This weekend Jacob's family was in town, so we spent most of our time at his mom's parents' house watching basketball, socializing, and playing games. It was like a spontaneous family reunion and neither of us was worrying about homework or studying (tooo much). It was great!

Last night I started freaking out, because my ear felt weird and I remembered my mom telling me how she had to remove a bug from her friends ear. So I thought "What if there's a bug in my ear?!" Then I was convinced! I'm a little irrational sometimes...plus I diagnosed myself on WebMD (worst thing ever, it convinces me I'm about to die at least 3 times a month). Then I made Jacob follow these steps I found on ehow.
There wasn't anything in my ear.
Jacob was pretty nice about not acting like I was crazy.

simplify

"We women have a lot to learn about simplifying our lives.

We have to decide what is important and then move along at a pace that is comfortable for us.

We have to develop the maturity to stop trying to prove something.

We have to learn to be content with what we are."

--Marjorie Pay Hinckley

I ramble

Jacob's younger sister texted me yesterday, asking if it was wrong that she hoped a family emergency would come up so she could get out of going on a date she'd been dreading.
And I remembered how glad I am do be done with all that dating business.
SO glad.

I'm also almost done with school. I can't decide if that's a good thing or a bad thing. And I can't decide if I should cram everything I have left into one 17-credit-hour semester or if I should just take my time. It would help if I knew where we'll be in the summer. If we stayed here in Provo, I could take classes and that would solve nearly all my problems.
I got an email about a job opportunity to teach English in Italian summer camps. It sounds soo appealing: get paid to teach kids in ITALY. But instead I'm being a supportive wife and going wherever an internship or job for Jacob is. And it's killing me to not know where we'll be, because I'm the person who always likes to know the plan.
Keep reminding myself: glad to be done dating! and all really good things come with sacrafice.
marriage= no more being selfish

Here comes the sun

via
I love spring!
And I know it will probably snow a few more times just because Utah is dumb like that,but whatever. I'll enjoy this week and pretend spring is here to stay.

good and bad

The bad news: If I try to eat or move from this spot on the couch, I will likely throw up again.

The good news: This is a great excuse to watch several episodes of Grey's on Netflix.
And I found this picture of Jacob.


p.s. I'm not with child.

crazy people

For probably the past month, there has been a line of tents camped outside the Marriott center waiting for the next basketball game. Last week they wrapped around the ENTIRE building. Makes me want to go camping.
Is it Spring yet?

oh and I support Austin's idea for Brandon Davies: "I want to make shirts that say 'I'd do him too' with a big picture of his face"
BYU would love that.